Being a mommy vs. fitness

When I was pregnant everything I saw was either pregnancy related, pregnant women or babies…. EVERYWHERE! Or maybe I just started noticing those things more since I was soon going to enter the world of motherhood. One of the most motivating things I saw often would be mothers with their child in a stroller out for a walk and I wanted to do the same one day. I was pregnant during the summertime and to those mommies who have been there know what great joy that is…. not really.

Dylan was born in September – Crisp, cool air. I figured it’d be perfect before winter made an appearance. I really wanted to get back into shape and eat healthier, etc. That’s when reality hit me. I was a new mom, breastfeeding, lack of sleep and was only able to take two months off from work. I became a working mom in November and life got busier with work, Dylan and Jake, trying to maintain a social life, but who am I kidding!? It may sound like I’m making up excuses to not work out and to be honest, sometimes I did/do use them as an excuse. All I want most days is to sleep, clean, eat or a nice, hot shower.

I still haven’t got into a routine that includes working out, but I really want to figure it out. I have lost 28 pounds so far which I’m happy about. Friends and family tell me not to be so hard on myself about losing weight, but I just want to get back to how I used to be. I’ve been a tad bit impatient about it and I believe that’s my problem.  However, I’m trying to stay positive and take it one step at a time 🙂 Also, today I took Dylan out for a walk in his stroller for the first time since the temperature was up a little. It was nice and having him with me and it made the experience all that more motivating although we had to make it a quick walk since it started to get windy. That’s New England for ya!

Shout out to all the moms who make it work. It’s not easy, but that’s what makes us a Superwoman, right? We provide our family with love and comfort while working and taking care of ourselves at the same time. I believe that I can get back to my pre-pregnancy weight and that right there is more than enough. I know I can, I know I can, I know I can.

Hope you all have a fabulous day!

Love

Wow, I don’t even know where to begin. It’s been a long time since I’ve actually just sat here and wrote anything.

A lot has happened.

The most wonderful thing that has happened – I have become a mom to the most amazing little baby boy and today he is 4 months old! I can’t picture life without him… I can’t even remember what life was like without him. His name is Dylan. Dylan Alexander. He’s my little miracle, he gives life so much more of a meaning. It was love at first sight- I never thought I could feel this amount of love towards someone. Once I saw him, life changed instantly and for the better. He brings so much happiness to me.

Happiness is also what Jake makes me feel. He has been the best father that Dylan could ever have. I love watching them play together, or when Jake feeds him or watching him put Dylan to sleep – it really makes me feel so happy and warm inside- I can’t explain it. I’m the luckiest woman in the world. I feel like I won the lottery with Jake and Dylan. They are the true definition of what love is to me. I believe love is powerful and makes people do crazy things and feel a certain way that can’t be put into words.  Life doesn’t have to be perfect to be beautiful. Embrace the small things and treasure them because when you look around, life is pretty amazing. Becoming a mother has made me view life in such a different way. I love my son and Jake through the ups and downs and to the moon and back. My little familia❤️

 

May the way I look at you, the way I speak with you, and the way I treat you, reflect the truth that I have loved you since forever.  -Dr. Steve Maraboli

The one

You are the one.

The one I can run to when I’m feeling all sorts of anything. The one I can act a complete fool with and not feel judged. The one I can talk about my dreams and life long goals with. The one I can take adventures with and make memories for a lifetime. The one I can call at 3a.m because I had a nightmare or to simply hear your voice. The one I can take pictures with (silly or not) because you know photography is one of my favorite things. The one I can just look at and admire how handsome you are OR the one I catch staring at me when I glance over to look at you. The one that can communicate with me by just staring into each other’s eyes. The one that shows me passion, boundless and everlasting love; even if it’s just a text saying how much you love me.

You are the one I have wanted all along and to be able to call you mine gives me the most amazing feeling in the world. To know that my lover is my best friend means everything to me and to know that we both want to share our lives together makes it even more worthwhile. We’ve already been through a lot and always keep moving forward and continue to love each other. And that’s the beauty of love…. To surpass any obstacles that may come our way and to continue loving unconditionally. Every second we spend together, I truly cherish.

Thank you for being you, making me feel so special and for giving me your friendship and your supportive, sarcastic, happy, understanding, pure and sweet love.

I love you forever.

Let me catch you up

It has been such an eventful past month. I celebrated 6 birthdays (including my own) along with having my family from Florida visit for the holidays and it was all so anticipated to happen yet it flew by so fast. I guess the best way to describe all that I’ve been up to is to actually show you all through my pictures.
So here it goes…

Let’s start with my sisters 15th birthday

Next: A Day in New York

And also a day in Vermont:

It has all been so much fun, but tomorrow it’s time to go back to reality. Since I work at a school, I’ve had a break just like the kids. I’ve thought about them over vacation and I’m excited to see them again. This is more of a “catching up” post since I’ve been so busy with all that’s been going on, but there will more to come dear readers!

Love always,
Dee

Emotions

It’s okay to be nervous about speaking your mind, but do not hold back on saying what you are thinking or feeling by mistaking it to being too sensitive or emotional.

Especially if it’s a relationship or has to do with a person you care about tons; the other person should thank you and respect what you’re feeling. I guess I’m bringing this up because I just got out of my Community Conflict Resolution class and talked about mediation and how hearing each other out when in a conflict is super important EVEN IF you don’t think the conflict is a big deal. When someone fully opens up to you, they are selling a little bit of their soul to you because they confide in you and trust that you will appreciate them speaking their mind on what or how they are feeling. Being too emotional or sensitive is usually looked down upon because people think it is a sign of being weak, but if you truly care for someone or about a relationship then why the hell not be completely honest with them? A relationship between two people is never going to be perfect (trust and believe that now if you think otherwise) and that’s the beauty of it. There is such beauty in solving small or big conflicts and moving along with life because it shows how much love and care is put into the relationship by the two people (or a group of people). Showing emotion is a sign of strength because you are letting another individual (or group of people) into your heart and brain and it is not always easy to do so. If the other person thinks you are weak for being too sensitive or emotional, than that person doesn’t deserve all of your time, etc.

So own it. Own being outspoken and honest about how you feel when it comes to your loved ones or a special relationship with someone. Love fully or don’t love at all is how I look at it. This ties back to my other post “Love so Hard” in the sense of fully loving my significant other and how the little things mean the most to me. I can honestly say that I am a victim of “having a big heart” and sharing my thoughts and feelings with him because I would not be able to hold something back from him. He knows that I care and if you’re reading this right now Jake, I love you more than life xo

Happy Thoughts to all you readers 🙂

Highlight of the day

Every day of this week, my students have to choose and write who or what they are thankful for since we are getting ready for Thanksgiving. One of my students said she was thankful for me and then says, “Well you are my family, ya know” It was followed with a big hug! You should also know that I work with children who come from troubled families and don’t really get the chance to experience what a Thanksgiving dinner is with all of their family under the same roof. Next week, we will all be gathering up in the gym to have a huge Thanksgiving dinner and it is the one time throughout the whole entire school year where the entire school (students and staff) are all together. It’s a big deal to the kids and to the staff because we show the kids how important they are and we get to share this same experience like a huge family. I am so excited for next week’s festivities at work! These children have opened my eyes to so much more in life and how important it is to cherish and value our loved ones.

I am sincerely thankful for them in every way possible.

 

Love so hard

I realized that I love so hard.

I love to make my significant other feel like he is special in every possible way (he is, btw).

I love being open and honest with him too. After all, keeping secrets from each other or not sharing your thoughts is not healthy even if it hurts to hear it.

That’s the beauty of love… being able to open 100% knowing that your lover will still be there for you regardless.

Also, being silly and not giving two shits about it because you already know that you feel comfortable enough to share your weirdness with each other. A relationship without humor has got to be SO boring and dull.

I love to surprise him with random yet meaningful text messages or random gifts because I can’t help, but to think of him when I see something at a store that reminds me of him.

I love staying up late with him even if I know I’m going to have a long day the next day. Every second spent with him is bliss.

I love calling him to see how is day was or call him as I walk to my car at night because just his voice makes me feel safe and secure.

I love spending time with his family and when he spends time with my family because I feel a sense of unity between the two.

I love looking at him when he doesn’t know I am to simply admire how handsome he is to me.

I love everything about him and that’s what makes me love so hard because even when times are tough, we both find a way to move on and grow from it and just keep loving each other the same way we always have, if not more.

Good vibes always

Even in absence of thought, the mind is a subconscious machine, it thinks of why or how things can feel so empty.

Don’t torture yourself.

Woah

It’s been a while and I really did want to try to be consistent with my blog. A lot has been going on in my life like getting a new job and starting to take grad school courses. I am in love with my job and so happy it worked out this way. I am now working at a private alternative school with children who don’t have great lives at home, children with psychological disorders, children with behavioral issues and the list goes on. My dream has always been to help children and juveniles with troubled backgrounds and help them to succeed in life; they are our future. As for grad courses, it’s going well. I decided to only take one class for now as I find a balance my new lifestyle.
Speaking of college, I am super proud of Jake for going back to school and deciding to finish. He honestly is part of my motivation to do well in life and his support means the world to me. Tomorrow marks our 6 months together and I know we have so much more to experience together ahead of us. We recently went to the Patriots game and it was such an amazing time.

There is definitely more to catch up on and I do not just want to ramble on about my life because this will turn out to be a SUPER LONG post. I hope to post regularly again!

Until next time,

Dee

Truth be told

Wow…. this is SO true. Let your man show you off… & if he does, you better hold on to him.