Love so hard

I realized that I love so hard.

I love to make my significant other feel like he is special in every possible way (he is, btw).

I love being open and honest with him too. After all, keeping secrets from each other or not sharing your thoughts is not healthy even if it hurts to hear it.

That’s the beauty of love… being able to open 100% knowing that your lover will still be there for you regardless.

Also, being silly and not giving two shits about it because you already know that you feel comfortable enough to share your weirdness with each other. A relationship without humor has got to be SO boring and dull.

I love to surprise him with random yet meaningful text messages or random gifts because I can’t help, but to think of him when I see something at a store that reminds me of him.

I love staying up late with him even if I know I’m going to have a long day the next day. Every second spent with him is bliss.

I love calling him to see how is day was or call him as I walk to my car at night because just his voice makes me feel safe and secure.

I love spending time with his family and when he spends time with my family because I feel a sense of unity between the two.

I love looking at him when he doesn’t know I am to simply admire how handsome he is to me.

I love everything about him and that’s what makes me love so hard because even when times are tough, we both find a way to move on and grow from it and just keep loving each other the same way we always have, if not more.

Good vibes always

Even in absence of thought, the mind is a subconscious machine, it thinks of why or how things can feel so empty.

Don’t torture yourself.

5 more days

Until graduation!!!! I still cannot believe it. This has been a goal and dream of mine since I was younger.  And I’ll be the first to graduate from college in my family which means a lot. My family is super proud of everything I have accomplished thus far and I too am proud and thankful for this accomplishment. This is just the beginning to a new chapter in my life and i can’t wait to see what the future has in store for me!  I’ll make sure to post pictures from graduation,  etc.
x, Dee

My Jake

These are only some of the texts I received this morning. It’s the little things that mean the most to me. I still don’t know how I got so lucky to meet someone so amazing. I can go on about this for hours and write about it endlessly, but I’ll save it…..for now. I am just so amazed that another individual is able to bring that amount of joy to my life.

Views

Considering I made this blog not too long ago, I just want to say thank you to those who actually read my posts. That is all.

Relieved

Alright, I am officially done with finals as an undergraduate student and it is the best feeling!!! This week has been so hectic for me, but it’s all done and over with. I can’t believe I am graduating from my university next Saturday.  Time is flying by and my dreams are slowly, but surely becoming reality! I wouldn’t have made it this far if it wasn’t for my amazing family and close friends. I’ve been surrounded with such great energy by family, best friends and boyfriend; I wouldn’t trade them for the world. I am super thankful for everything and everyone that has helped me along the way.
If any of you out there are taking finals or just stressing over something, look back and think of all the good things/people in your life. Some people may have it worst and sometimes we take things for granted. In life, we are usually tested and if it wasn’t a blessing then it was a lesson. Don’t let anyone rain on your parade, strive to be amazing and remember that you can’t live a positive life with a negative mind.
Next Saturday will be such a huge accomplishment… I’ll keep you posted! 🙂

Today

You know what’s nice? When someone appreciates your presence. Today before going to work, I stopped by the convinient store around the corner from my house to buy some water. You should be infromed that I haven’t stopped by there in a little while. When the owner saw me, her face lit up with joy and asked me where I’ve been all this time! I couldn’t help, but to laugh….It was a good and comforting laugh. She thought I had moved and that’s why I haven’t been to the store in a long time. But as I walked out of the door I remembered that I never got her name after all this time. I turned around and asked her what her name was and she asked for mine. The feeling of appreciation felt mutual. I thought it was awesome becasue you never know who you truly looks forward to seeing you or who actually admires your presence in a room. Share your smile with people and show them a sense of appreciation; it goes a long way.

Inspired by Mina; the store owner.

-Dee

Have you ever?

Have you ever felt like you just clicked with someone?

Have you ever felt so comfortable in your skin and not have a care in the world?

Have you ever felt like you were capable of anything you put your mind to?

Have you ever felt like you weren’t going to see someone all day, but manage to make time for them?

Have you ever met someone from the opposite gender/sex that was almost the same person as you?

Have you ever met someone whose birthday is the day after yours?

Have you ever met someone who has made you feel like you were the most amazing person to live on this planet?

Have you ever met someone that can finally handle your strong personality and laugh at your silly jokes?

Have you ever met someone that has stared into your eyes and it feels like they are staring into your soul?

Have you ever met someone where you don’t have to say much about how you feel internally, you can just feel it through their body language?

I have. I have clicked with someone like I haven’t with anyone ever before. It is the most amazing feeling in the world. I feel beautiful inside and out because of this individual. There are days when we believe that we aren’t going to see each other at all and then BAM, one of us makes it happen. Someone finally doesn’t take my sarcasm too serious and is sarcastic back to me. Yet, he can be so charming, a true gentleman with his kind words that flow gracely through his lips. I can just taste the words as he speaks and it’s a lovely feeling when he caresses me. I feel safe and silence isn’t awkward. There is this bond that just ties us together, I don’t want to let go. I crave you. I crave the way you look at me straight into my eyes and tell me how pretty I am. I crave your presence, that’s enough for me. I don’t want this feeling to go away….. This is so worth while.

Thank you J.

One day.

I wrote this on my Tumblr blog one day and thought I’d share with you all.

 

You are constantly looking for someone to care about you in different ways, whether it is talking to someone all day or creepin’ through the night with someone. Because that feels just as good; pleasure. Pleasure of having love and being loved, affection, being able to confide in someone or even cracking stupid jokes with each other….because it gives you warm feeling inside. You crave attention and are quick to stick to someone who gives you what you want. You want it because you want to feel wanted…..accepted…..loved. It’s natural, we’re humans and wanting all of this is normal. Trial and error….. some individuals will test you, hurt you OR make you laugh and love you. You just never know what life throws at you next. You also learn to adapt. Adapt to not being in a relationship and being aware that all someone wants is to hit it & quit it or play with your emotions because they are unsure of their own. Adapt to being constantly loved physically and emotionally because you refuse to not be wanted. It’s all a learning process.. People come and people go and you will never know how long they will stay You just have to….wait. Wait until you find out whether someone is a blessing or simply a lesson learned. You are scared to show how you really feel because it isn’t that easy anymore…how unfortunate. Unfortunate because people do not value your feelings as they should, but hey that’s just the way the cookie crumbles. There is only so much you can do…. So love yourself before you love ANYone else because you are oh so beautiful inside and out darling. Find your strengths and weaknesses and love them. You deserve to come first and to be happy. Radiate good vibes and make others laugh with your corniness, who cares! Before you know it, there will be someone who will love all of your beauty and imperfections……. One day.