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My Jake

My Jake

These are only some of the texts I received this morning. It’s the little things that mean the most to me. I still don’t know how I got so lucky to meet someone so amazing. I can go on about this for hours and write about it endlessly, but I’ll save it…..for now. I am just so amazed that another individual is able to bring that amount of joy to my life.

Relieved

Alright, I am officially done with finals as an undergraduate student and it is the best feeling!!! This week has been so hectic for me, but it’s all done and over with. I can’t believe I am graduating from my university next Saturday.  Time is flying by and my dreams are slowly, but surely becoming reality! I wouldn’t have made it this far if it wasn’t for my amazing family and close friends. I’ve been surrounded with such great energy by family, best friends and boyfriend; I wouldn’t trade them for the world. I am super thankful for everything and everyone that has helped me along the way.
If any of you out there are taking finals or just stressing over something, look back and think of all the good things/people in your life. Some people may have it worst and sometimes we take things for granted. In life, we are usually tested and if it wasn’t a blessing then it was a lesson. Don’t let anyone rain on your parade, strive to be amazing and remember that you can’t live a positive life with a negative mind.
Next Saturday will be such a huge accomplishment… I’ll keep you posted! 🙂

Special

I don’t know what you do or what you say to make me feel so special.

Today was amazing.

I went to drop off my final this morning and after that I went on a peaceful nature walk with my Jake. It was just what I needed, especially this week because it’s been so stressful with finals, etc. I can’t wait to go back there and explore more trails.

The trail we walked today.

After that, we went to my place and as I was working on a final paper, he stayed with me until I finished and actually helped me stay on track. His presence being in the same room as mine was enough for me. After that we went for a Starbucks run to come back and just watch some T.V and just chill….It’s also so awesome how welcoming my family makes him feel. Everything has just fallen into place so greatly. I don’t know what I did to deserve this, but I don’t want this feeling to ever go away. I am so thankful for everything thus far.. and if you’re reading this JDC, just know that you mean the world and more to me. Finally found someone who understands my weirdness and can joke around with, but at the same time appreciates my love and corny words.  Don’t kill me for posting these silly pics of us on here, but I couldn’t help it. Days like these are the ones I cherish the most. xoxo

 

Because we’re goofballs and we love it.

Until the next post peeps. Hope you all had an amazing day & thanks for keeping up with Dee 😉

 

 

 

Naked

You make me feel Naked.

My guard breaks free as if you were stripping me down.

No regrets, just love. I know that this is why I have waited.

My personality feels  free just the way my silhouette feels when I’m with you.

No worries at all, you’re the one I wanna stick to.

I rather feel Naked and free than to feel clothed with self-doubt.

You make me feel Naked.

-Dee

Have you ever?

Have you ever felt like you just clicked with someone?

Have you ever felt so comfortable in your skin and not have a care in the world?

Have you ever felt like you were capable of anything you put your mind to?

Have you ever felt like you weren’t going to see someone all day, but manage to make time for them?

Have you ever met someone from the opposite gender/sex that was almost the same person as you?

Have you ever met someone whose birthday is the day after yours?

Have you ever met someone who has made you feel like you were the most amazing person to live on this planet?

Have you ever met someone that can finally handle your strong personality and laugh at your silly jokes?

Have you ever met someone that has stared into your eyes and it feels like they are staring into your soul?

Have you ever met someone where you don’t have to say much about how you feel internally, you can just feel it through their body language?

I have. I have clicked with someone like I haven’t with anyone ever before. It is the most amazing feeling in the world. I feel beautiful inside and out because of this individual. There are days when we believe that we aren’t going to see each other at all and then BAM, one of us makes it happen. Someone finally doesn’t take my sarcasm too serious and is sarcastic back to me. Yet, he can be so charming, a true gentleman with his kind words that flow gracely through his lips. I can just taste the words as he speaks and it’s a lovely feeling when he caresses me. I feel safe and silence isn’t awkward. There is this bond that just ties us together, I don’t want to let go. I crave you. I crave the way you look at me straight into my eyes and tell me how pretty I am. I crave your presence, that’s enough for me. I don’t want this feeling to go away….. This is so worth while.

Thank you J.

One day.

I wrote this on my Tumblr blog one day and thought I’d share with you all.

 

You are constantly looking for someone to care about you in different ways, whether it is talking to someone all day or creepin’ through the night with someone. Because that feels just as good; pleasure. Pleasure of having love and being loved, affection, being able to confide in someone or even cracking stupid jokes with each other….because it gives you warm feeling inside. You crave attention and are quick to stick to someone who gives you what you want. You want it because you want to feel wanted…..accepted…..loved. It’s natural, we’re humans and wanting all of this is normal. Trial and error….. some individuals will test you, hurt you OR make you laugh and love you. You just never know what life throws at you next. You also learn to adapt. Adapt to not being in a relationship and being aware that all someone wants is to hit it & quit it or play with your emotions because they are unsure of their own. Adapt to being constantly loved physically and emotionally because you refuse to not be wanted. It’s all a learning process.. People come and people go and you will never know how long they will stay You just have to….wait. Wait until you find out whether someone is a blessing or simply a lesson learned. You are scared to show how you really feel because it isn’t that easy anymore…how unfortunate. Unfortunate because people do not value your feelings as they should, but hey that’s just the way the cookie crumbles. There is only so much you can do…. So love yourself before you love ANYone else because you are oh so beautiful inside and out darling. Find your strengths and weaknesses and love them. You deserve to come first and to be happy. Radiate good vibes and make others laugh with your corniness, who cares! Before you know it, there will be someone who will love all of your beauty and imperfections……. One day.

 

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