Love

Wow, I don’t even know where to begin. It’s been a long time since I’ve actually just sat here and wrote anything.

A lot has happened.

The most wonderful thing that has happened – I have become a mom to the most amazing little baby boy and today he is 4 months old! I can’t picture life without him… I can’t even remember what life was like without him. His name is Dylan. Dylan Alexander. He’s my little miracle, he gives life so much more of a meaning. It was love at first sight- I never thought I could feel this amount of love towards someone. Once I saw him, life changed instantly and for the better. He brings so much happiness to me.

Happiness is also what Jake makes me feel. He has been the best father that Dylan could ever have. I love watching them play together, or when Jake feeds him or watching him put Dylan to sleep – it really makes me feel so happy and warm inside- I can’t explain it. I’m the luckiest woman in the world. I feel like I won the lottery with Jake and Dylan. They are the true definition of what love is to me. I believe love is powerful and makes people do crazy things and feel a certain way that can’t be put into words.  Life doesn’t have to be perfect to be beautiful. Embrace the small things and treasure them because when you look around, life is pretty amazing. Becoming a mother has made me view life in such a different way. I love my son and Jake through the ups and downs and to the moon and back. My little familia❤️

 

May the way I look at you, the way I speak with you, and the way I treat you, reflect the truth that I have loved you since forever.  -Dr. Steve Maraboli

I GRADUATED FROM COLLEGE!

I did it!

My lovely family

My aunt made this cake. How amazing!

Best friend

Friends!

Best friend

My love

Just lovely

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Considering I made this blog not too long ago, I just want to say thank you to those who actually read my posts. That is all.

One day.

I wrote this on my Tumblr blog one day and thought I’d share with you all.

 

You are constantly looking for someone to care about you in different ways, whether it is talking to someone all day or creepin’ through the night with someone. Because that feels just as good; pleasure. Pleasure of having love and being loved, affection, being able to confide in someone or even cracking stupid jokes with each other….because it gives you warm feeling inside. You crave attention and are quick to stick to someone who gives you what you want. You want it because you want to feel wanted…..accepted…..loved. It’s natural, we’re humans and wanting all of this is normal. Trial and error….. some individuals will test you, hurt you OR make you laugh and love you. You just never know what life throws at you next. You also learn to adapt. Adapt to not being in a relationship and being aware that all someone wants is to hit it & quit it or play with your emotions because they are unsure of their own. Adapt to being constantly loved physically and emotionally because you refuse to not be wanted. It’s all a learning process.. People come and people go and you will never know how long they will stay You just have to….wait. Wait until you find out whether someone is a blessing or simply a lesson learned. You are scared to show how you really feel because it isn’t that easy anymore…how unfortunate. Unfortunate because people do not value your feelings as they should, but hey that’s just the way the cookie crumbles. There is only so much you can do…. So love yourself before you love ANYone else because you are oh so beautiful inside and out darling. Find your strengths and weaknesses and love them. You deserve to come first and to be happy. Radiate good vibes and make others laugh with your corniness, who cares! Before you know it, there will be someone who will love all of your beauty and imperfections……. One day.